my indulgence

I was driving home from my recent jaunt to the dermatologist. The clock said that it was 4:14 pm. I did a mental rundown of what I could do before I go back home where my sister in law is babysitting Xavier. I decided that I am going to the grocery to get his yogurt and then the pharmacy to get my medication. By the time everything was done, I was back in my car and the clock said 6:10pm. Time flies so fast. Sometimes I just want it to slow down so I can enjoy my baby more. I came home and he gave me a big smile. My sister in law said he did not nap at all today. I could see that he was tired. I gave him dinner and hurriedly gave him a bath. When he was in his jammies he was cranky and was biting me with frustration. We sat down at the couch and I breastfed him. He calmed down and was asleep in minutes. I don't know if I can give up my daily indulgence: breastfeeding my son. That is our quiet time together at the end of the night. Now I know why moms continue to breastfeed their babies way past their 1st birthday.